Kalau..

Kalau kau ingin tahu

bagaimana rasanya menjadi aku:

menjadi orang yang paling berhutang budi

sekaligus merasa paling tidak diinginkan..

Yang kupikirkan hanyalah lari dan menepi..

dan menemukan diriku kembali

yang terkubur di antara tumpukan kemurahatianmu

yang kupikir telah menyelamatkanku..

Kalau kau masih mau mengerti

bagaimana rasanya menjadi aku:

ketika dengan tertatih aku belajar memahami

Guru yang kupuja mencampakkanku..

Yang kuinginkan hanyalah lari dan menepi

dan menemukan diriku kembali

yang hampir tak terlihat

di antara selaksa pemikiranmu

yang kupikir telah mendamaikanku..

Kalau kau mau pahami,

Andai kau begitu..

Yang kauinginkan mungkin cuma berlari

dan tak kembali..

Citra

Depok, 14 Januari 2009

Menjadi jaksa itu mudah

Yang sulit adalah menjadi hakim YANG ADIL

Ya habib, kini kubertanya: dimana rasa keadilanmu???

Our Beautiful Tsuraya

Sudah 40 hari lebih berlalu sejak anak kedua kami -puteri pertama- lahir. Kami memberinya nama Tsuraya Kaulan Karima yang artinya Pelita yang Cantik dan Santun. Kami memanggilnya Raya. Diprediksi lahir pada hari Raya Idul Fitri tapi meleset 2 minggu menjadi tanggal 14 Oktober 2008 / 14 Syawal 1429 H pukul 09.45 WIB di RSIA Hermina Depok.

Syukur Alhamdulillah Raya lahir sehat, selamat, dan cepat prosesnya. Awalnya Dokter Nelwati sempat khawatir dengan kondisi Raya karena denyut jantungnya drop hingga 100an/menit setiap kontraksi berlangsung, padahal menurut hasil USG tidak ada lilitan tali pusat. Lalu diambil tindakan memecahkan selaput ketuban untuk mengetahui kondisi cairannya. 

Ternyata sudah hijau dan kental, mirip jus kacang hijau kesukaan Bubu waktu hamil Raya. Namun karena sudah bukaan 5, tindakan seksio tidak direkomendasikan oleh Dokter. Cuma, Dokter sempat mewanti-wanti kalau bukaannya belum sempurna dalam 2 jam akan dilakukan akselerasi. Alhamdulillah 5 menit kemudian datang gelombang kontraksi yang sangat hebat sampai2 Bubu nggak sempat mikir untuk mengejan. Paramedik langsung buru2 datang dan memimpin persalinan karena mereka lihat bukaannya sudah lengkap. Saking hebohnya ranjang persalinannya nggak sempat diberesin.

Lima menit kemudian Raya lahir. Bubu sempat mengalami pendarahan hebat yang disebabkan oleh berat bayi yang terlalu besar (3820 gram) dan kondisi rahim yang shock karena kontraksi terlalu cepat dan hebat ( hanya kira2 10 menit sejak bukaan 5 sampai lahir). Tapi Alhamdulillah Allah memberikan Bubu kesembuhan yang cepat pula.

Empat puluh hari kemudian, tanggal 22 Oktober 2008, kami melaksanakan aqikah untuk Raya. Begitu banyak doa kebaikan yang dirapalkan untuknya.

Doa Bubu dan Baba, semoga Raya kelak menjadi perempuan shalihat yang mencintai dan dicintai Allah, dan diberkahiNya selamanya. Aamiin.

tolong keluarkan ke dalam kulkas...

mungkin kalau hidup di indonesia gak kebayang apa maksud judul di atas... di mana-mana yang namanya menaruh benda ke dalam kulkas ya dimasukkan bukan dikeluarkan.

but it is happen to me when you're in the winter country. when you can not find refrigerator inside your room, but you need cool drink or else cool. just put the drink outside the window. for it is minus 15 Celcius, takes only 5 minutes to get everything cool and even freeze :)

Dorset, Enid Blyton's country

Do you know that Enid Blyton's stories are based on real life from her experience when visit Dorset? Famous Five Have Plenty of Fun tells about Faynight Castle in Kirrin Island. Faynight Castle, a ruined castle because of war, is based on Corfe Castle. Andi felt the famous five experience when taking steam train travel from Swanage to Corfe Castle yesterday. Andi also bought some Enid Blyton's book in Ginger Pop Store, while he had read the indonesian translation in his early age, for gift.

Swanage has beautiful sites to be visit, it's white sand beach, and many seagulls you can find more than in Bournemouth. It's Old Hary Rocks in the edge of it's Jurassic Coast is a natural monument. Also the Corfe Castle Village, which has a nice ruined mysterious castle. Didn't find any mosque in swanage, andi took his prayer in the garden near station.

Going back to Bournemouth just as simple as go to Swanage. A return trip ticket of Dorset Belles from Dorsetcruise bring you v.v. Bournemouth Pier - Swanage Pier.

get in travel in london

going anywhere in london is easy, that's what the underground offer you. by a travelcard, you dont have to buy ticket everytime you take the tube train or bus. you can take Day Travelcard, 3 Days Travelcard, 1 Week Travelcard, or Oyster Travelcard for you who stay in London. But the fares will be different for each zone. But still, it makes easy to getting around london.

Mas Asep had took andi to Temple station and show him some interesting places to visit. then Andi went to Westminster sta to get closer to Bigben Clock and Parliament Building. Andi could also saw the wheel from Westminster Bridge.

For took his Asr prayer, Andi went to London Central Mosque which is near Regent's Park. He also had his dinner in the restaurant under the mosque. Then Andi went back to Baker Street Sta by bus. Andi back to Willesden Green and had his Magrib prayer in Central Mosque of Brent, a Pakistani's mosque.

Andi likes to go to the mosque. Anywhere he goes, he always try to find mosque nearby.

reporting for bbc london :)

this morning, andi woke up late. yesterday was a busy day and so tired. went to Indonesian embassy for a sign in report by tube jubilee train from willesden green to bond street. andi purchased a 3 day Travelcard for his convenient travel around london zone 1 & 2 for only £16. cheaper than he buy ticket for every train.

at the embassy meet wahyu, an indonesian who work as a house helper. he has a thai wife, they met and married in london. but his wife now works in germany. many stories from him while had lunch in embassy's canteen. but we have short of time because today is friday. andi went with some embassy worker to egypt embassy which held jumaa prayer. because of late coming, andi with some people who also late, should waiting outside the room, and conduct the prayer outside.

after prayer, andi went to bbc indonesia by tube central train stop at holborn station, to meet mas asep setiawan. and this report was written from bbc, by mas asep account. thanks mas.

day out bournemouth

this morning jogged along the sandbanks to pier to garden of the town center. andi checked out for his last day in bournemouth. but he planned to take some tour to swanage by cruise and corfe castle by steam train and feel Enid Blyton's experience. in the afternoon will be back to hotel to take his luggage and be picked up in hotel then run the wheels to london. wisma merdeka, where andi stay in london. andi will report his day out tour later.